freenovelworld Chapter 157 I Don't Want to Blame Her
Chapter 157 I Don't Want to Blame Her
Hearing Siyi cry out in pain, Jiang Yan paused for a moment, but did not let go of her. In just three seconds, he gripped the back of her neck again.
He grabbed her delicate chin with one hand, forcing her to look him in the eye.
His face was expressionless, yet it inexplicably gave people a chilling feeling.
"Sisi, don't do this again, okay? I've told you so many times that I don't like you being with that lawyer. Why do you always have to provoke me? Is it so easy for you to smile at him?"
A surge of anger welled up inside her, forcing Jiang Yan to tighten her grip on Sisi's chin even more. Her expression finally turned fierce. "Can't you be a little more obedient? One moment you're rolling around in bed with me, and the next you're running off with another man. Sisi, have I been too good to you? Or is there something you can't discuss with me instead of getting all lovey-dovey with that damned lawyer?"
Such questioning is not only offensive, but it can also make you want to cut ties with him completely.
Siyi's face was still streaked with tears. The deepest resentment in her heart had finally erupted at this moment because of his words. She didn't know if she was numb from the pain, but when she spoke, her voice was unusually calm, "What right do you have to say such things to me?"
Jiang Yan was taken aback. She looked directly into his eyes, and the cold light in them sent a chill down his spine.
"Jiang Yan Hui, what right do you have to talk to me like that? Why should I be obedient to you? And what about you? Before you speak or act, do you ever think about whether I'm willing or not? Have you ever respected me? You're always like this, domineering and never asking for reasons. I'm not anyone to you, so why do you think I can't be with other people?"
She chuckled softly, her trembling masked by a sarcastic tone. "Isn't sleeping with someone just a daily occurrence for you, Young Master Yan? Even if I'm rolling around in bed with you one moment and then throwing myself into another man's arms the next, what's it to you? We're both adults. It's just consensual. Do you really think that sleeping with someone once means you have to be responsible for them? Young Master Yan, if that's your mindset, how many women would you be responsible for?"
She knew how sharp her words had been, and at that moment she actually admired herself; it turned out she was still the same Ye Siyi she used to be.
With a sharp tongue, she uttered the most hurtful words clearly, each one like a dagger. She didn't care, stabbing him mercilessly into his most vulnerable spot. She knew it would be a bloody mess, excruciating pain. At that moment, Jiang Yan Hui's usually alluring eyes seemed to hold a broken heart.
But why is it that I don't feel a sense of exhilaration?
He deserves to die, doesn't he?
He never spoke to her, yet he said those things in front of her father. He never considered her feelings. Every time she was with Zheng Muyan, he would hurl insults at her.
He does whatever he wants. Maybe he already knew about his parents' impending divorce, and maybe everything that happened last night was intentional...
There are too many. She could find far too many excuses to question him. She could even blame him. It was all because of him that her father had been hospitalized one after another. If the name Jiang Yanhui hadn't been in her life, would everything have turned out differently today?
If Dad hadn't seen that newspaper in the first place, he wouldn't have gotten so agitated and ended up in the hospital, and he wouldn't have had a stroke later. So, Mom wouldn't have left Dad...
But thinking about it was no use. She knew she didn't blame him at all. She never wanted to shift all the blame onto him, even if it would make her feel better.
She knew she wasn't completely indifferent to him.
Just now, while listening to that song, she knew that the name Jiang Yanhui had already taken root in her heart and could never be erased.
That's why she'd rather suffer and make herself miserable than blame him.
Knowing full well it was wrong, she still went to the police station to bring him out; knowing full well he had somewhere to go, she still let him into her apartment; knowing full well she couldn't let herself sink any further, she still indulged herself...
"Damn it, Ye Siyi, do you even know what you're saying?"
Jiang Yan was so angry that he laughed. After saying just that one sentence, he suddenly couldn't say anything more.
He had worried about her for so long, and he had guided her into his inner world time and time again. He once thought that he would never feel a heartbeat again in this world, but she broke into his life when he was heartbroken. He wanted to open his heart to her without reservation.
When she was kidnapped, he mobilized everyone he knew just to find her as quickly as possible. He even abandoned his principles to apologize to Leng Xiyu. Since his entanglement with her, he has never contacted any of his previous women.
Jiang Yanhui could have any woman he wanted.
But just because of her, just because of this woman, I don't want any other woman if it's not her...
Unexpectedly, in her heart, he was nothing more than a domineering, unreasonable person who didn't care about sleeping with him once.
Jiang Yanhui suddenly laughed. It turned out that even he, Jiang Yanhui, could act like an idiot.
He's such an idiot!
He narrowed his eyes, pressing his thumb firmly against her cheek, which was still warm and wet from her tears. He asked emotionlessly, "You really don't care? Then tell me, why were you crying just now?"
Siyi's heart skipped a beat, and she stiffly turned her face away. "Do I have to tell you why I'm crying? Or do you think I'm crying because of you? When did you become so presumptuous, Young Master Yan? After what happened to my family, do you think I would be as heartless as you? I don't know how to threaten my parents. All I know is to hide away and cry helplessly. Are you satisfied with this answer?"
As she spoke, her eyes remained fixed on a sycamore tree not far away, and despite the season, she managed to see the leaves falling from that tree.
She felt a bitter taste in her mouth, as if she had swallowed a bitter herb, and she felt as if the leaf had fallen from her heart.
Autumn hasn't even arrived yet, but the leaves can no longer stay on the branches. Even if they are unwilling and reluctant, they can only resolutely fall down, fall down forever, and leave.
If we're really going to keep going on like this, then we might as well just let go cleanly and decisively.
Their meeting was a mistake from the start, and she's recklessly let it drag on for so long. But a mistake is a mistake, and continuing will only cause suffering to those around her. So let it be...
There's no point in holding on tightly to things that don't belong to you.
What kind of man is Jiang Yan Hui? His interest in her is fleeting; it only lasts a moment. If she pushes him away forcefully, he won't relentlessly pursue her. He has plenty of women, doesn't he?
Jiang Yan suddenly pressed her forcefully against his chest, a possessive and forceful embrace that made Siyi feel breathless.
As she instinctively reached out to grab him, just as she was about to say something, he silenced her with a kiss.
He wouldn't give her any leeway, he just didn't want to hear another word from her. In the bustling mall entrance, he gripped the back of her neck and fiercely bit her lips until she felt the pain was unbearable. Only then did he release her, his husky voice whistling ominously in her ear, "Not satisfied."
Siyi subconsciously raised her eyes and saw his sexy thin lips slightly pursed, with the familiar, charming curve at the corner of his mouth.
But for some reason, she felt that his wicked smile was different from before. There was no emotion in his eyes, only a cold light. Her heart skipped a beat, and she had a bad feeling. "What... what do you mean?"
"What do you mean?"
He narrowed his eyes, and with a slight movement of his hand around her waist, he lifted her up in his arms. Siyi screamed, but he laughed even more frivolously, "I'll tell you what it means in a moment!"
After saying that, he strode towards the car parked not far away.
Siyi already had a pretty good idea of what was going on, and as she struggled, Jiang Yanhui was determined not to let her go.
Full of malice, he forcefully shoved her into the car and got in himself. Afraid she would run away, he squeezed into the passenger seat with her and only sat in the driver's seat after getting into the center console.
"Jiang Yanhui! You bastard, what do you think you're doing? Let me out of the car! I want to get out, I need to go to the hospital!"
Seeing his handsome face darken and his profile tense, she knew he wasn't going to let it go. Desperate, she tried to grab the steering wheel, but Jiang Yanhui firmly held her hands down. She growled angrily, "What do you want? Can't you just leave me alone? My father is still in surgery! Where do you think you're taking me? Can't you think about me? I don't want to see you again, Jiang Yanhui!"
"Don't want to see me? That's a pity. I'll not only let you see me, I'll let you see me every day, every hour."
He gave a cold laugh, slammed on the gas, and the car shot off like an arrow. He merely gripped the steering wheel with one hand, while the other held her hands high above his head. He glanced at her only when he had a spare moment, his tone no longer possessing its former wicked charm, but replaced by a contemptuous sneer. "You can rest assured, your father won't die. It's just a heart, right? I've already arranged everything. He'll be out of the operating room today, and he could easily live for another ten years. But, since I've helped you so much, shouldn't you give me something in return?"