freenovelworld Chapter 475 You say it's my fault?
Chapter 475 You say it's my fault?
Zong Yujing's eyes were bloodshot. He pointed to himself and asked Zong Que,
"Ah Que, tell me, is this what I deserve? Hmm? If this is fate, why me and not him? It was clearly a choice between two people, why was I the one chosen to be sacrificed and not him? All these years, I've just wanted an answer, and who gave it to me?"
He shouted, "Who gave it to me?"
"My mother doesn't even dare to see me! Do you think it's because of guilt? No, it's not because of guilt, it's because of regret. She regrets not killing me when I was born, but she's also afraid. They say twins' fates are intertwined; if one dies, the other will die too. So she wants me dead, yet she doesn't dare let me die! Zong Lin is the same! Otherwise, why do you think Zong Lin hasn't killed me all these years? Doesn't he want to? He just doesn't dare!"
“My mother wants to forget me. She has always wanted to forget me. She wishes I had never been born, so she never mentions me! From the moment she learned that she was pregnant with twins, she began to pray that they must be twins, a boy and a girl, because twins are auspicious and can help her advance further, while twins can only bring disaster!”
"How ridiculous! She gave birth to me, yet she's always wanted to forget me."
"My father, mother, brothers, everyone wishes I didn't exist. Is that my fault? Tell me, is it my fault?"
Zong Que watched him go crazy silently, without answering him.
Zong Yujing didn't seem to expect him to answer anything. After the frenzy subsided, he gradually calmed down, as if accepting everything, and murmured something.
“I accept it, I accept it all. I grew up in that vortex, and I’ve come to terms with it.”
“I also started to make friends. A-Che didn’t look down on me, and there was Xin-Xin. I was really happy when I was with them. I thought at that time that if I could, I could stay away from Beijing and never come back, as long as I could be with Xin-Xin. I only wanted to be with her.”
“Xinxin has never looked down on me. After she saw my true face, she even said to me, ‘It’s just twins. Why does the royal family have such a strange rule? In this world, it’s such a good thing to have someone who looks exactly like you. What’s wrong with that? Why hide?’”
"It's the first time someone has said something like that to me. Do you know how happy I am? Even though I know it's not a good thing and no one will be happy, it's the first time that no one is shy about it and treats it as a normal thing. So I'm really happy. I think if I can be with her, the rest of my life will definitely not be as full of gloom as the first half of my life."
"So I went to beg Zong Lin. He's already the emperor, he has everything. Even Chongwen couldn't beat him. What more could he want? All I want is Rong Xin. Rong Xin doesn't like the palace. He lied to her. He used A'Che to make Rong Xin compromise. Otherwise, Rong Xin could have continued as before, wandering the world and becoming a divine doctor."
"You see, Zong Lin doesn't understand her at all. He only thought Rong Xin was an unconventional woman like Sister Jing, but he didn't know that Rong Xin is not Sister Jing. Rong Xin doesn't like politics, doesn't like all that scheming and backstabbing. She's just a very simple person. And what happened? He used tricks to deceive Rong Xin, making her think it was love, but what was it in the end?"
Zong Yujing seemed lost in that memory, and his speech became somewhat incoherent: "Why did he kill Rong Xin? Why? He killed A Che, he killed Xin Xin. Why did he do this? He was afraid. He was afraid that Chongwen would come back, afraid that Chongwen would take away everything that belonged to him. So he resorted to any means necessary. So he wanted everything, and he also wanted to destroy everything."
He laughed: "I'm not crazy, I'm not crazy, he is, he is!"
"He's the biggest madman in the world, a madman, a madman!"
Zong Yujing suddenly stood up from the dragon throne, took a few steps forward, moved a lamp stand, and the stone wall next to him rose up, instantly sweeping the entire underground palace with a sinister chill.
Zong Que looked towards the stone wall. Behind the stone wall was a huge piece of transparent glass, and behind the glass were huge blocks of ice. Among these ice blocks stood ice coffins, and inside the ice coffins were women with beautiful faces, dressed in wedding gowns.
They were sealed in ice coffins, their faces still lifelike, but devoid of any radiance.
Zong Que slowly clenched his fist.
Zong Yujing excitedly said to Zong Que, "A Que, look at these women, don't they look like Xin Xin? They do, don't they? They have the same delicate features and the same youthful vigor, but why, why aren't they Xin Xin?"
"I don't like going to the surface. I prefer being in the mausoleum. Everyone says that the mausoleum is closer to hell. She's been gone for so long, why hasn't she come to see me? Why doesn't she come?"
Zong Que could no longer contain himself: "Mr. Rong is a miracle doctor, a physician. If she knew what you've done, she would only feel disgusted."
"Disgusting?" Zong Yujing was stunned for a moment, then said blankly, "You're right, she'll be angry, she'll definitely be very angry. She never treats people for money, whether they are powerful and wealthy merchants or street laborers, she treats them all the same. So when she finds out that I collected girls who look like her to be buried with her, she will definitely be angry."
"Then why doesn't she come to me? Why doesn't she come to me! If she comes to me, I will go with her, even to hell, anywhere is fine with me, why doesn't she come?" Zong Yujing suddenly broke down in tears like a child, as if the sky had fallen.
Zong Que coldly asked, "Have you finished acting?"
Zong Yujing stiffened, slowly raising his head to look at Zong Que. His face was expressionless, even showing a hint of interest in his eyes, which then turned to hurt: "You don't believe me? A Que, how can you not believe me?"
"Whether I believe you or not, it won't change anything you've done." Zong Que pointed at the girls: "You keep talking about your own fate, but what about theirs? You think your future was predetermined from birth, that your fate was set, but what about them? They were living perfectly fine lives, but because of your selfish thoughts, they lost their lives. Why should you decide their fate?"
"You say Father is a madman, that's right, he is a madman, you are a madman, and so is the Empress Dowager. You are indeed mother and son by blood, you are all madmen!"