freenovelworld Chapter 345 The Fifth Dream (2)
Chapter 345 The Fifth Dream (2)
Unable to sleep, I tossed and turned, so I decided to write down my thoughts.
Today, I suddenly started vomiting uncontrollably. Ruyi hurriedly called the family physician, and that's when I found out that I was pregnant with my husband's child.
They've only been married for two months, how could it be so fast?
When my husband returned home, I couldn't wait to tell him the good news, but he was rather indifferent. He only said "Take good care of yourself during your pregnancy" before moving to the study to sleep.
Two months into our marriage, this is the first time I've been alone in my room.
The thought of having to stay alone for another eight months makes me sad.
Does my husband not like this child? Why is he treating me like this?
Or... does he not like me?
I don't understand, and I don't dare to ask. I don't want to hear an answer that will upset me.
Perhaps I'm deceiving myself, but does he really have absolutely no feelings for me?
Come to think of it, he was just fulfilling the marriage agreement set by his parents, and he could only marry me.
However, I have never heard anyone say that he has ever been in love with any woman. If he were, I would be happy to grant his wish.
Although I'll be a little reluctant to let it go, I'll try my best to forget it.
It was only a two-month relationship, not very deep. But now my husband and I have a child, what should we do with the child?
But if he asks me to have his child, does that mean he doesn't dislike me?
Sigh, I'm just being delusional again.
If he didn't dislike me, why did he move to sleep in the study after having a child?
Perhaps he just wanted a child to inherit the family business, and now that he has achieved his goal, he no longer stays with me.
This letter serves as proof that from this day forward, I will also hate him and never like him again.
After reading all this, Shen Fuhan remained stunned for a long time.
He recalled that when Wen Jiayue first became pregnant, she did act strangely. She cared for him as much as before, but was occasionally cold towards him.
He had asked the physicians at the time, and they both said that pregnant women's tempers were unpredictable, so he didn't pay much attention to it.
I never expected it to be for this reason.
Two years later, he finally learned the real reason.
As for him moving to the study... Shen Fuhan sighed deeply; she had misunderstood him.
However, it's also his fault for not explaining the reason, which is why she's been overthinking things for so long.
Shen Fuhan looked at his dream self with a complicated expression. When did he find this letter? Was it when he was sorting through his belongings?
In his dream, he stroked the Xuan paper again and again. Shen Fuhan couldn't bear to look anymore and walked around the bedroom.
The bedroom seemed to remain as it was when Wen Jiayue was alive. Several hairpins were placed on the dressing table, all of them simple and elegant in style, which should have been the ones she often wore before her death.
Shen Fuhan had a sudden inspiration: if he gave her these hairpins in advance, would she wear them?
Thinking of this, he tried hard to remember these hairpins and planned to draw up the designs as soon as he woke up, and then find a craftsman to make replicas so that he could give them to her as a New Year's or birthday gift.
Once he had memorized it completely, he put the Xuan paper away in his dream.
After closing the hidden compartment, he coughed heavily, threw off the covers, and lay flat on the bed.
Shen Fuhan watched silently until he was sure he was really asleep; he remained in his dream.
Could something else be going to happen?
Shen Fuhan was no longer in a hurry. He stood aside and waited, taking the opportunity to observe what he would look like after he aged.
His gray hair was beginning to show, fine lines were creeping up his face, and he had grown a beard, making him look even more old-fashioned and serious.
He lowered his eyes as he recalled Wen Jiayue's appearance.
For some reason, he always felt that she wouldn't like him as he was, and even he himself found it hard to accept.
Perhaps it was because he had truly seen what he would look like when he grew old, while he couldn't imagine what Wen Jiayue would look like when she grew old, that he felt a sense of disconnect.
Moreover, Wen Jiayue is seven years younger than him. Even if she were still alive, she would only be thirty-one years old now, still beautiful and young.
Shen Fuhan thought silently that after he woke up from the dream, he would also start using those perfumes.
I just wonder if there's a colorless and odorless one, otherwise it just feels a bit awkward.
As he was lost in thought, the person on the bed stirred and murmured something. He looked over and saw that the person was talking about A-Yue.
"Ah Yue...you've finally...deserved to see me?"
Shen Fuhan was startled. Was he dreaming?
“You only come to see me when I’m sick,” he murmured. “I’m so sorry for you, yet you still come.”
Shen Fuhan was taken aback. Was he sorry to her?
What did he do to betray her?
The previous times it was said that he died of illness, but did he not take it to heart, so that Wen Jiayue did not receive timely treatment?
No, he'll keep it in mind, unless... he's not around.
"At most two years. After I finish all this, I'll definitely come to be with you," he said in the dream, reaching out his hand with a look of deep reluctance. "Wait for me, Yue..."
His hand slowly fell to his sides, he slowly opened his eyes, and two hot tears slid down his cheeks.
Shen Fuhan clutched his chest, as if he could sense how much pain he was in during his dream.
Everything was fading away rapidly, and the man in his dream was getting further and further away from him. Shen Fuhan opened his eyes and sat up with a start.
Outside the window, the sky had already darkened, with thick, dark clouds gathering, as if brewing a heavy rain.
Shen Fuhan pinched the bridge of his nose, paused for a moment, and then walked out the door.
Wen Jiayue and Zhaozhao's voices came from the side hall. The mother and daughter were laughing, as if they were in another world.
He slowly walked over, and his laughter abruptly stopped.
Wen Jiayue looked at him and called out helplessly, "Husband."
The image of her kissing him an hour earlier was still vivid in her mind, and she felt quite uncomfortable all over.
But since she had already promised him, she naturally wouldn't go back on her word. She took the initiative to explain, "Zhao Zhao and I returned two quarters of an hour ago. We heard from the servants that my husband doesn't allow anyone to disturb him, so Zhao Zhao and I ate our meal first."
Shen Fuhan looked at her with a complicated expression and remained silent for a long time.
Wen Jiayue then ignored him. In any case, she had already explained that she would not agree to his unreasonable behavior.
"Zhaozhao, focus on your food." Wen Jiayue fed her daughter a spoonful of pumpkin porridge.
Zhao Zhao obediently swallowed, then pointed at Shen Fuhan, who was still standing outside the door, and asked in confusion, "Father?"
She didn't quite understand why her father was standing there the whole time, instead of coming to eat.
Wen Jiayue encouraged her, "Zhaozhao, why don't you go ask your father?"
Zhao Zhao nodded, and the wet nurse took her down.
She ran to her father's side, grabbed his hand with her little hand, and pulled him towards the round table with all her might.
"Father, eat..."
Shen Fuhan followed his daughter forward, sat down next to Wen Jiayue, and put Zhaozhao on his lap.
He was filled with countless thoughts, but he didn't know where to begin.
Finally, he dismissed all the servants.
Wen Jiayue's heart skipped a beat: "What are you doing?"
Shen Fuhan said, "Ayue, I was happy when I learned that you were pregnant."
Wen Jiayue was taken aback. Why did they suddenly bring this up?
After a moment of silence, he continued to explain, "There's a reason why I moved to sleep in the study."